Birthdays

Kyndall turns one today and Ella turned 3, two weeks ago. Wow that is a joyous but bittersweet sentence to type. Where has the time gone? As I was talking to Ryan about this fact of our lives last night he just couldn't believe that it had been only a year, and I agreed. This year has been one long year but looking back in regards to our babies, it has flown by. And as sad as I am that I can no longer cuddle with Kyndall for hours on the couch or listen to her slow breathing while she is asleep in the bassinet right beside me, I know that life has so much more in store for us. I look to Ella as the example. I so miss those nights when Ryan would sneak her into our bed and we would play with her at 11 o'clock at night, laughing and playing peek a boo. We would fall asleep with her between us and I just knew he was counting his blessings just as I was. But life is so different now with her and I wouldn't go back if I had the chance! She is such a huge part of our lives and enriches our whole world with everything she does. From her "oh come on now" when I won't let her have her way to her random "I love you mom" when she just knows I need it to her needing to put on makeup just like mommy, she is the daughter that I have always dreamed of. I already so proud of her acheivements and can't wait to see more as her life goes on. And just as I love Chase and wouldn't go back to when he was younger (although when he has attitude maybe) she reminds me that I need to live life just as it is, NOW. So instead of being sad and reminensent of the year that has passed in our littlest ones life, I am going to be happy to still have her around. And just as there will be times that remind me of how fragile she is (yesterday took a tumble down our stairs face first, yeah that was scary and I am still crying) there will be times that remind of just how strong of a women she will become. Wow that was a hard one to type as well. I am so proud to be their mom and can't believe that all of my kids are growing up so well. So HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my two girls. You make my heart swell with pride and I couldn't be happier to be your mom!